Just One Evening

I had such high hopes for beautiful evenings spent in our garden this summer. I dreamt of evenings sat outside with a glass of wine (though water would have done) with David, lanterns glowing with tea lights and fairy lights draped beneath the umbrella. Maybe one of us sat in the pod on a big cushion that we never ended up buying, swaying slowly. I envisioned having our little patch of brown filled with beautiful flowers and greenery, and music gently flowing out of the open living room window while we chatted easily and enjoyed each other's company.

We still get to enjoy each other's company. Unfortunately it's mostly locked up indoors, windows firmly shut because of my ongoing hayfever and more often than not, there's a bucket at my feet, because of the nausea, just in case.

It saddens me to look out at that garden, (even with nosy neighbour sticking her head out of the window opposite trying to catch any movement of anyone that might be worth gossiping about) and see it left unused. Brown patch still very much brown save for the weeds that have grown back after I painstakingly spent hours trying to get rid of them just a few weeks ago. Umbrella still closed and covered after the long, cold winter. And find myself wishing for cold again because I know it'll calm the hayfever.

Before I know it, the summer I so wished for will be over and I won't have had a chance to enjoy it. I hate watching it go by and not be able to do anything about it, except dream about the way it could have been.

I'm sad today. Disappointed. But tomorrow's a new day and the weather should be cooler. And who knows? Maybe one of these days, it'll ease up, and maybe I'll get even one evening in my garden before the winter's back.

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4 comments:

  1. the first trimester is hard! i've never been so tired as i was those weeks. i had so many things i would have loved to do, but couldn't manage it. it gets better and know its totally normal :) hugs

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  2. unfortunately the bigger problem is my hayfever :( although I've made the decision to go back on my medication, so hopefully that will help some!

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  3. That is such a shame you can't enjoy your garden and the summer evenings, I hope things improve for you soon.

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  4. Thank you Rob. The cooler weather means the hayfever has calmed down a bit - and who says I can't enjoy the garden just because it's a bit cooler? ;) I even went and bought that cushion for the pod!

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Penny for your thoughts, my dear...

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